This poem opens my book, Why Great Teachers Quit and How We Might Stop the Exodus.
I am the guardian of your 10-year-old self
I bear witness, child one second
teenager the next
developing a sense
of what is right
what is wrong
and all in between
pushing the boundaries of childhood
like water on the levees
intense daily interactions
reading, writing, thinking
talking, laughing, brooding
until poof ! you’re gone
like summer in Vermont
or a flock of birds overhead
flying fast out of sight
I squint to see the tiny dots disappear.
So when I see you in town
at the grocery store,
don’t think I’m odd
because I stop in my tracks
shaken
because while I’ve stayed
the same in the mirror
you’ve gone through a
swirling metamorphosis
when I wasn’t looking
you’ve danced, sung, played, changed
and done more than I’d ever known
or could teach you.
I’m looking for the relic
for the tiny piece
of your preadolescent
clumsy, shining self
searching the pictures in my mind,
head spinning.
So when you see me on the street
stop and say hello.
Tell me who you are now
and I will tell you
who you were
then.